Wednesday, 06 July 2011
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American High School
So .... i have been wondering for a while now what an American High School is REALLY like.
American High School is equal to Englands' college, right?
In England, college is basically a sixth form i guess... you either do A Levels, B Tech or Apprenticeship. What do you do in an American High School?
In college ... atleast my college anyway - things like certain types of groups and status quo NEVER existed. In school it did, but not in college. So as seen in movies, stereotypical groupies ... you know - Jocks, Cheerleaders, Nerds, Skaters and Goths etc... Is it really like that? Are there any archetypes or is everything really as typical and its percieved to be??
Thursday, 10 December 2009
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His Smile
He smiled at me today.
It felt weird. But his smile - it keeps flashing in to my mind.
Why?
A cheeky grin, but a sweet one.
It seemed forced, exagerated.
... But it wasn't.
I laughed, i giggled, i smiled a genuine one back.
How sweet!
But then REALITY hits me.
He isn't mine.
He has a girlfriend.
He is my teacher.
And most of all, i having no feelings for him.
But why did my heart skip a beat when he smiled?
Why do i get jealous when he talks to other girls ..... students ...?
Why do i hate knowing about his girlfriend?
Why do i like talking to him?
Why can't my eyes look away from him?
Why do i like being around him?
Even though he can't pronounce my name properly, why do i love my name in his voice?
Why can't he get out of my head?
Why did i watch him walk away?
Why did i keep turning around, to check on him?
I KNEW he wasn't there.
I KNEW he isn't coming back soon.
But his smile, his gorgeous smile, it won't fade away.
Friday, 04 December 2009
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Arashi: One Love
By Arashi
see relatedBeing Left Behind
I have been really down in the dumps lately.
I don't want to go to college anymore - why?
I thought of many reasons. At first i thought that i hated college - end of. But that's not true. Then i thought, the reason is because i don't want to be in education anymore so after this year i have decided to quit. Ok, so "quit" isn't the word i want to use, it sounds more cowardish(is that even a word?? ><“). How about .... leave? Yeah, leave sounds better.
But the honest truth is that i am being left behind, and i HATE that. My best friend will be off to university whereas i will be stuck spending another year at college. For what? Doing terrible in my first year?? I guess i had that coming. I don't want my peer group to leave me, i will be with kids that are younger than me. I will feel lonely and left out. The fear of being alone is isolating but i’m sure it's not as bad as it seems. My brother told me that spending one more year at college is good, its not bad, it's actually better than going straight to university after two years.
"Why?" I remember asking.
"Because you can mature and you know what you want to do, you can get your head straight and you will be more happy because you will have more understanding knowledge and patience in your life." He told me.
I understood what he meant, but didn't want to believe it until now. So, all i have to do is face my fears, and as my mum said ....
"Enjoy your life while your living it"
And so that's what i will do. I will endure it and look at the bright side. I won't give up.
So what i'm being left behind? It's not the end of the world. My peer group is leaving me but we can still keep in touch via facebook and msn right? Plus, i get to make NEW friends and i will try my best to enjoy myself. I know that i am somewhat of a coward, i give up easily and i need to be pushed towards my goal, i'm lazy and always see the bad side of the things. But i can change - right? I am who i am, i know what i can do, i also know what i can achieve if i put my mind to it.
I'm not gunna give up just because i am being left behind. Its actually quiet stupid and silly but i guess some feelings can't be helped. As long as my family and friends and my Lord is with me, i can get through anything! =D
Right, i'd best be off! >.<
I know that i haven't exactly left a good impression of myself but im sure i can't be THAT bad. =P
Night guys!
ps. Please post a comment or what ever you want ^-^. I would really appreciate it.
pss. If any of you have ever been in my situation or can relate to it - please share it with me and tell me how you over came it or are still living through it.
Friday, 27 November 2009
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First Day - Formal Blog
Hey guys! How you all doing?
So, my first proper blog for Xanga, how cool is that?? >.< lol.
I have always wrote diaries but i absolutely never thought i would be able to do it on internet so people can actually find out how much of an idiot i am. >-<"
So, yeah, being serious now. On your first days - how formal do you have to be? I mean some people are EXTREMELY formal when they introduce themselve, for example when they talk about their; Name, DOB, Location, Occupation, Facial and Body Features. .......... okay!! you got me bang on - i always introduce myself to my Diary like that and yet it is read by no one. D=
So i thought, instead of doing my normal usual routine everytime i start a new book - i want to do something completely different! And for that, i will write questions which i will answer for myself first and i want you, yes YOU, the male or/and female who is looking at their screen, reading my boring blog entry, to ask me questions about me and i will reply ASAP!! ^-^. And so my questions start;
1) Where do i live??
Up North England
2) What do i do?
I am a STUDENT in my second year of college, but i have to stay another year to get proper A Levels. I somewhat failed my 1st year - a U in Law, an E in Sociology (which is REALLY weird because in my january exam i got a B and in may i got a U ...... i want it remarked!! But it's too late =( *sniff sniff*) and i got a D for English, so atleast i get to carry that on to A2 from AS. Don't get me wrong or anything, i am actually a C grader average student! I was just toooo lazy to work and i have DEFINITELY learnt my lesson too.
3) Got any more photos of myself?
Yes yes yes yes YES! Glad i asked. It is past one o'clock here and i am pretty exhausted and sleepy as it was Eid today (Happy Eid everyone and Eid Mubarak! =D) so what i will do is that i will upload photos i have took a little while (literally a few minutes) ago. *BE WARNED* I was in a very crazy and posy mood so i just took extremely RANDOM photos of myself. Hope you guys will find them as humourus and idiotically weird as i did XD hehehe.
And so, i am off to bed. I hope i didn't offend anyone, get on their nerves, and make them feel like i REALLY am weird, because im not. I am a normal 18 year old girl just like every other 18 year old girl. I just thought i will show you my (somewhat) of a funny side first to be more friendly. =P
I honestly hope that all of you will definitely comment and ask me questions and be friendly to me too.
Thanks you guys, take care, sweet dreams!! x x
